It’s already a bit late, and I should’ve been in bed really, but I just want to write a quick little blog text and tell you a little about my day to give you some glimpses into it and an example of how a day can be for me.
Today I overslept, and it’s not so strange, because I got delayed and went to bed very late last evening. Lately I’ve not had enough sleep, and last evening I was very tired, so my oversleep also had to do with those things. I got up around quarter past ten today.
Not only did I oversleep this morning, but I was slow tempowise – if I can use that expression – and didn’t get much done in the beginning of the day. I delayed myself by using the internet a while in the morning, and then had a late – and long – breakfast, and while I eating I read in the Bible and then in a book I’m reading these days called “Purpose Driven Life” by Rick Warren. When I used the internet both before and after my breakfast I just did little things like checking my email and using Pinterest.
Finally I got around to having a shower long into the day – yes, after noon – and then after having my shower I started to run late and had to try to be a bit quick, because at one o’ clock a nurse – a lady I call “my nurse” – was going to visit me. You see, the counsil of Kristiansand have given me a nurse to talk with twice a month. She comes to my house to give me about an hour of her time to be with me and talk with me and thereby support me. It’s because of my diagnosis Asperger’s syndrome that she comes. I need someone to be able to talk with about my life and things related to my diagnosis, someone who can listen to me and whom I can get support and advice from, and this lady comes to give me that. When she came today, at 13.00, I had just managed to get dressed and put some mousse into my hair, but I had not finished getting ready, so I asked my nurse if I could just put something on my face, and that was ok. I just quickly put some eyebrow marker on myself and didn’t put on any other makeup. I often don’t use other types of makeup like mascara if I know I’m just staying at home, and this day my plan was to at least be at home in the daytime, and I don’t mind my nurse seeing me without any make up, so I just thought I would leave it with only putting on some eyebrow marker.
When I talked with my nurse today we talked about different things, and it was partly about a difficult situation I’ve had to deal with lately, a situation I don’t want to write about here. The point is that if I have something difficult to deal with I can talk to my nurse about it, and she gives me support and tries to give me advice about what I should do in different situations. It’s good and helpful for me. This doesn’t mean I don’t have people in my private life, like family members, I can talk with about difficult things, because I do, but for me it’s sometimes good to be able to talk through things with someone that I don’t stay in touch with in my private life and someone who’s got a confidentiality agreement in his or her job and therefore will have to keep what I’m telling secret. It feels good to sometimes share things with people like that, I think.
Not only did I talk with my nurse about different things today, and by the way I also updated her on my life, like I always do to a certain extent when she’s here, but I also got some practical help from my nurse today, which was very good. Yesterday I had a very busy day and had to deliver a proof reading job I had done, and I delievered it about 17.20. Then I had to make myself dinner and relax a bit, and I did different things online, and then suddenly a brother of mine called me, which was very nice, and a bit later I just felt very very tired and as if my body just didn’t want to do anything else but take it easy or sleep. Then I didn’t feel like doing the dishes, and I left it. I also left other housework yesterday. In the end it was all left undone, so today it was quite messy at my place and quite a lot of housework needing to be done. My nurse was kind to help me through doing the dishes for me and also helping me getting started on things I needed to get done, through just supporting me in getting things done, and we both did housework together for a while, basically. So she actually helped me to get started on getting practical things done today, and it was so kind of her and felt really good to have gotten some things practical things done before she left. I thanked God for the help I got from my nurse, both what she did for me and also for the help and support she gave me in getting things done myself. The thing is that I often struggle with getting started on things or getting things done. I often find it hard to get started on housework, for instance, but I’m not saying it’s like this all the time or with all kinds of things. It varies, but often I find it hard to get started on things, and I very easily just put things off or forget about them. Hmm… I just remembered now: I was going to water my plants today, but I’ve forgotten it…
Anyway, I’m really very delayed now, and this is also quite typically me and one of the big challenges with having Asperger’s syndrome… I so easily get delayed or finished at a late time with many things I do, like with writing. Do you know why? Well, the biggest reason, the way I see it here I’m sitting and writing, is that I am usually very thorough in most things I do, so that when I’m doing things I often spend a lot of time on getting them done. I’m often very detailed and also often very perfectionistic in what I do. Anyway, I easily write a lot and very detailed. Now that I started writing on this blog text, for instance, I thougth I could try to write at least 50 words, but I’ve already written more than 1100 words – right now the word count is on 1145 words. This shows to me that I can easily write a lot when I’ve just gotten started, and that’s something I already knew.
Anyway, I really have to finish soon. I didn’t plan to sit and write for so long, but typically I didn’t think about the fact that when I write I easily end up writing for a very long time because I’m so detailed. The time is now 23.46 in Norway, when I’m sitting here writing, so I really should go to bed soon, so I just have to try to end this text quickly.
Well, the nurse visit was very good, anyway, and after my nurse’s visit, I felt more energized and motivated to getting things done, and I felt like finding magazines to throw away and to get more papers sorted. I ended up sorting through some papers for quite a while, but first I wrote some important emails. Before I had dinner I had managed to sort through quite a bit of papers, and I was very pleased. I hadn’t gone through magazines, but at least I had gotten some important paper sorting done, so I was pleased.
I had a very nice dinner with fish cakes, potatoes, cabbage and turnip today. Some time after the dinner I called a friend with a daughter who turned 4 years today to congratulate, and that was a nice experience. Then I was going to try to get a lift with someone in church to go to a gathering in church in someone’s home, and I called someone to ask for a ride, but their car was filled up, and after that I tried getting a lift with several others, but my attempts failed, so in the end I decided to just stay at home. I had wanted to go the meeting in my church, but when I didn’t get a lift, it felt good for me to take it easy at home and get more time to do housework, because I had a lot to do, and I had often felt very stressed in my body with irregular heart beats many times. I had also felt very tired since the start of the day, and during the day and evening I just kept on feeling stressed in my body. After I knew I was going to have the evening at home, I decided to do some housework for a while. Then I did the dishes that then needed to be done, put on a bread for baking in my bread baking machine, hung up a laundry, and did some tidying up and other housework needed to be done. I worked very well, I think.
During the rest of the evening I have just taken it easy, watched some TV, eaten a good evening meal with my freshly baked bread – which tasted delicious – and done little things of my own. I also had a while that I just spent worshiping and praying to Jesus, my Lord and Saviour.
Now I’ve told you some main things about my day and very many details, actually, so now you know a whole lot about my life. I’ve been very personal and open, and perhaps some will think this is a bit strange or dangerous or not good, but to me it’s a good thing, and I believe it’s not dangerous – and I know God will protect me anyway. I know I’m much better at being open about my life nowadays than I used to, and I’m open and honest about my life and try to tell quite a lot and have now chosen to be very personal about this day I’ve just told you about, because I’m thinking that if I’m being open in this way and share things about my life, perhaps that can mean something good to someone else. Perhaps someone can learn more about life with Asperger’s syndrome through reading my blog, and perhaps someone can learn more about life as a Christian through reading my blog. I hope so. I also hope that my blog in general will be of inspiration and a blessing to many people in different ways, and I hope everyone who reads here likes to read here, also when I’m writing long and detailed texts like this. Anyway, if you don’t want to read it all, you could always skip some parts or come back and read more another day.
It’s 23.59. It’s time to go. Good night, folks.